Daily Diary 55

People think I'm this strong person who is exceptionally nice and let's people walk all over her. In reality I'm going insane, I feel like my world is crashing down on my shoulders and I'm losing everything. My friends, my family...myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

Daily Diary 54

Something makes me hate everything. Everything! I don't know what it is, and it only happens on certain days. And when it does it makes me feel like the whole world is against me...like I can trust no one...though when you put it that way it makes me sound invincible when really I could be dead in a second. Everything’s so fragile. Humans are so fragile, but we are strong too. We go through so many emotions....Anger, Jealousy, Bitterness, Tiredness, Hope, Lust, Love.

It's all the things you can't explain. It's all the things we feel in a day...in a life time...but that's what makes us human.

Daily Diary 53

Water runs down my face...slowly dripping off is rhythmic sequence. My reflection states back at me...my face solem...my mind silent...my eyes hold many emotions. They reflect loneliness, grievance, loss, anger, emptiness. 

Daily Diary 52

I cannot help but smile when I think of it, see it, feel it. It has been in my life for a very long time and it will stay in my life for forever. I am a total fangirl who believes in too much and keeps her head stuck up in the clouds...even when I was told to come down I can not afford to do that. It means to much to me...it is my life...it keeps me alive and sane. Believing in this allows me to hope, to have faith and to be who I am meant to be. Narnia is my home, it is where I belong...it is where I am meant to be.

Daily Diary 51

You don't  know what it's like to be an outsider, to be ashamed of how you were born, have to hide who you are....it's lonely...to be more powerful than any man you know, and have to live like a shadow...to be special and then have to pretend your a fool...I know how it feels... I understand...none of us can chose our destiny Merlin...and none of us can escape it...Destinies are troublesome things...you feel trapped...like your whole life is being planned out for you, and you have no control over anything and sometime you don't even know if what destiny decided is really the best thing at all...I don't need anyone...I can't afford that luxury...the love that binds us is more important than the power we wield.

Merlin (BBC) 
Golden Heart (youtube channel)

Daily Diary 50

"I hope no one who reads this book has been quite as miserable as Susan and Lucy were that night: but if you have been - if you have been up all night and cried till you have no more tears left in you - you will know that there comes in the end a sort of quietness. You feel as if nothing is ever going to happen again." (The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. pg183.)

Daily Diary 49

I am fascinated with death. For some odd reason I'm fascinated with the concept and the feelings that come with it. I start to obsess over it, wanting to know everything...needing to know everything. How, when, where...why. I like to feel the pain, I like to know the pain, I like to see the pain. How people grieve the different emotions that pass through them. It's fascinating to me. 

Daily Diary 48

Those days are long gone and yet I still want to remember them...I yearn for them. I want to remember how happy I was and how amazing it was to be with all of you. You all became my family and I will never forget that...I don't want to forget that. So I will grab onto those memories and I will store them away and keep them for forever 

Daily Diary 47

I want to remember. I want to relive those blissful moments, those sweet tender moments that we shared together. I was to be with you again. To catch your stares, to feel you again, to hear your voice. I want to be in your embrace again and feel you close to me. I want to see your smile and how your eyes shine when you speak. I want to remember you and I. I want to remember you. 

Daily Diary 46

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm confused and hurt and lost. Although I'm more lost than anything. I don't know where I am or where I'm going. I don't know which way to turn to or which direction to go. I don't know what is left or right I don't know what is up or down. I'm lost...I'm disoriented...I'm confused... 

Daily Diary 45

When I see you the World stops. It stops and all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you. There's nothing else. No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow. The World just stops and it is a beautiful place and there is only you. Just you, and my eyes staring at you. 

- James Frey, A Million Little Pieces 

Daily diary 44

I feel like I'm at constant war with my self. I'm depressed and always anxious and I feel like I'm going to explode. I cannot handle anymore stress then I already have. I want a normal life I just want to not have any special thing to me anymore...I'm done. I'm moving I want out of here...far far away from here as I can get will make me very happy extremely happy. I will regret it some,yes but in the long run...for my health I will be doing what's right 

Daily Diary 43

Is it even worth being friends with others, is it worth the hurt and pain you must put into it? I know it is for the joy and happy times but when it is constantly being torn down around you is it worth it? Is it really worth it in the end. The moment feels like your heart is being ripped out and kicked around and shredded, it feels like an icy cold grip around you and you cannot break free. It is like your whole world is crashing down and you can do nothing to stop it because you also had a really big part in tearing it down. Am I really that much of an idiot? Am I really that naive? Am I really that stupid? I guess all I can say is sorry for everything and that I have done everything I could have done. But even that is a lie because I haven't done anything and still have not, I tried to and it was successful at first but then it took a turn for the worst. Then I go and make it ten times worse because I'm a complete idiot who pushes the people that care away and react in such a hard manner which ends in disaster. I lose everyone in the end anyway so whats the difference now right? Well there is a big difference because I don't want to lose this person, but I think I already did. I am so sorry.

Daily Diary 42

Shaking, crying, scared. I'm terrified, kind of angry, sad, and so many emotions that in all honesty I have no idea of what yet are. It's happening again ad I'm scared and I don't know what to do. I can't believe this happened.

Daily Diary 41

I am such an idiot. I sit here on this blog and i wallow in my own pain and self pity. I think I am pretty brave and pretty strong and my home situation is not to be take lightly. But..just now I had watched a movie called Now Is Good. It was so good, and while I was watching this movie it made me realize that my life may be bad but its nothing compared to some other peoples..and they still move forward, they still keep going on strong. This movie was about a girl with leukemia, and it really hit hard because my aunt died from it when she was just 11. It made me think that life isn't so bad.

Daily Diary 40

I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I knew it would happen again. I can't keep forgiving you. I love you so much but you make me so angry,and confused I just don't know what to do anymore. You are destroying my life! I don't have a life as a 16 year old! I'm a mother at the age of 16 it seems. I want to be a teenager I don't know why you do this to your self.

Daily Diary 39

I feel like I'm missing. Like I'm lost and I have no where to go,no where to look, and no idea where to go. I am do confused and I do not think I'm going to figure it out. I may make the biggest mistake in my life,but I also might not. Although not final,I think I know what I'm going to do...

Daily Diary 38

Today was the first time I yelled at my grandparents today,I feel terrible. Of course we are stressed,upset,angry and tired. I couldn't blame them for telling at each other, but I'm also feeling upset and angry and they're my rock...I just snapped. The last bit of stability in my life has been thrown out the window. I'm so tired of all of this. I just want to be done.

Daily Diary 37

It seems like an eternity just sitting here waiting...worried out of my mind...fearing the worst... Hopping that it is not happening. I'm scared, because I do not know exactly what is happening... Please be alright and come safely.

Daily Diary 36

I guess it is true,trust no one but your self...because in the end others let you down. They tell lies, make promises they cannot keep and over all screw you over.Let me tell you this, it hurts...it hurts more than it really should but as the days go on you get used to the pain and go completely numb and then it doesn't hurt anymore.

Daily Diary 35

Tired. Sleep is evading me and all I can do is sit here and do nothing. Countless thoughts plague my mind,floating aimlessly, drifting where ever. I try and I try but it gets me no where. I'm at that part in life again where I'm confused, where I'm not in my mind anymore...I'm looking at my self from out side of my body. Is it real or not real? My mind is foggy and I cannot tell what I'm doing anymore or what I should be doing I'm confused. Everything that needs to be decided is not getting decided. I don't know what I want to do and it's killing me. Sometimes I wish I could just go and leave all of it behind...but that's just it i have no where to go...

Daily Diary 34

I feel trapped. I feel trapped under a thick layer of ice, drifting through the water underneath. I feel heavy, I feel like I'm sinking. I can see fragments of light, of hope, but it disappears just as soon as it comes. It's cold, it's dark, it's lonely.  I don't understand anything anymore, the conflicting feelings swirling inside mind, the numb feeling all over my body, the confusion pulsing through my blood stream. I feel like giving into the sinking feeling, I feel like giving into the darkness, but I know I can't.

Daily diary 33

Almost. Almost but not at all. I almost had that monster but yet again he escaped. I failed once again, my secret weapon is done and the house of cards is back standing tall. The hope I had has dwindled down to a small burning fire, not the once roaring one I once had been. Almost. Almost but not at all.

Daily diary 32

I hate you both,so much. I've always hated you dad,but mom I love you so much at least I used to. I'm done being betrayed,lied to, and strained. I'm done being abused by you and even though my brother and I don't get along well I love him more than life. He is the only thing worth fighting for now and that's okay because I will try to save him no matter what.

Daily Diary 31

Maybe I'm being to stubborn,well I most likely am but it's my favorite show. It's practically my life and it means a lot. I want good seats I've always said that. I would rather not have horrible seats with people who quite frankly annoy me and have no care for the show or the arts. Yes they may be cheap but that's exactly it why am I going to see a show in seats I don't want and can't see from... I'm sorry but you can talk behind my back and every thing I don't care this is something Im getting my way.

Daily diary 30

It hurts...it hurts that you won't stand up for your self or try to improve anything...and you know what I'm tired...I'm tired of you not doing anything for you, for me or for anyone, I'm tired of having to be responsible, I'm tired of being disappointed, I'm tired of forgiving...but I know I always will because I crave your attention. I crave your affection and love and everything a mother should give...yet here I am being the mother and pushing mine away...I'm losing hope fast,I'm losing my self. I question everything,your love,your mind,you choices and decisions...everything. I am at a loss,because even before I had at least a slight idea of what to do but now I have literally nothing. Nothing but running, and I would hate to run from this...but it's what I do best...

Daily Diary 29

Your words haunt me. Flashing in front of my eyes,echoing in my mind, whispering into my ears. Those words hurt,they were not mean,they were not meant to hurt. But just the idea of you saying that...hurts  more than anything. I can not imagine what would happen if you actually went through with it. 

Daily diary 28

I know I'll never have a chance with you. I know you will never see me like that. There are much more beautiful girls around you to choose from, even though I could be good for you. I'm not as popular, or as pretty as those other girls. I'm a nerd, a nobody, who reads books all day an wears glasses. I fangirl over things,like anime,fanfictions and tons of other things that are not "cool". So I know I'll never have a chance with you.

Daily diary 27

If you think about it society controls everything. You have the stereotypical cliches like women are delicate,supposed to be at home,take care of the children etc...while that has changed over the years it really hasn't. Little girls grow up playing with baby dolls,dressing up and really being protected from the world. It's just strikes me as weird now that I'm older...how I used to pretend to go through child birth when I was younger with friends...I don't know if this made sense it was just a mere thought that was not properly conveyed...  

Daily diary 26

Well by now you all know of my life. The basis of what I feel, how I am going through this...event in my life. Although by now it's getting tiring...I'm done...down for the count...and I can't do it anymore. One thing after another and it hurts more and more as I go on.
I not only hurt you tonight but I hurt my self...I'm so sorry...so so sorry...I know I'll never be able to take that back, such a small gesture, literally broke us apart...all the bonds we had built up again...gone. But I can't just keep forgiving you...and it breaks my heart to know that you are going through pain...but so am I...and your making it worse. So now what do I do, I don't want to leave...I have an amazing life here...my friends who are like my family are here...my amazing school that I got accepted into is here...your here...but I'm slowly loosing my mind being here...I don't want to go....I don't want to...but what am supposed to do...nothing? I just don't know anymore.

Daily diary 25

I am drowning. I am so deep I can't breath. I can feel the waves of emotion pulling me to and fro, up and down,side to side. I can feel the soft water caress my skin as I float down...down to the cold depths of my mind. My hair flittering an floating around my face, my arms and legs wafting around, my eyes open seeing the golden orbs of sun light glitter above the waters surface. I'm not breathing...but Everyone around me is. I'm drowning in my own mind.

Daily diary 24

There is no way that he could possible like me that way. No. I'm just some girl he knows, that he can kinda joke around with, someone he can work with and then be done with. I'm not special to him...and I never will be. Yet I'm falling for him...his attitude, his flaws,his jokes, his sarcasm....him.

Daily diary 23

I'm sorry. I know I broke you, I know I broke your heart into so many pieces with my honesty...my feelings...but I will not keep living in my own personal hell, I refuse too. It's too horrendous, just not right for me to feel like the way I do while you pretend everything is okay like nothing ever happened. I will not have it and I'm sorry.

Daily diary 22

Pros and cons of leaving

PROS:
I get away from him
Confusion goes away
Hurt goes away
Disgust goes away
Pain goes away
My life is saved

CONS:
Friends left behind
Mom and brother left behind
PAA left behind
Jackie left behind
My life is left behind/changed

Daily diary 21

If it meant nothing. If she meant nothing...Then why did you do it. When you were married and expecting...when you had a life ahead of you. Yeah okay she defiantly meant nothing.

Daily diary 20

Hate. Deep and emotional dislike towards someone or something...and I'm filled with it. Overflowing, brimming with it. I've tried to get rid of it, I've tried to get it to go away but it hasn't and it won't. You make it so hard, and I can't help it. I hate you and nothing will ever change that.

Daily diary 19

Revenge...something many think of, something many follow through with,something many want to have...I'm no different. I want revenge on that one person who hurt me,who hurt us, who finds enjoyment in all of this. I want him to feel everything I feel,everything she feels...and with these thoughts I can't trust anybody with these secrets I hide, not all of them at least. I can really only trust my self. Although there's one thing that he can count on, I NEVER forget...

Daily diary 18

My mother always says that I'm strong...invincible...these times are the best, at times like this we understand each other a lot more than usual. At those moments is turn and wrap her up in a hug and think to my self that I am strong, I am invincible. As much as I want to believe it...I'm not...at all I'm becoming broken and even though I alright I'm not really I'm breaking inside. I can't control anything. Control has slipped through my fingers like sand. And I wish he was dead, others wish he was dead but there is a part of me that wishes he wasn't...may that be my humane side or the side that still wants to love him...

Daily diary 17

Sometimes I feel like I've been killed, like I'm gone, I'm lost...but it doesn't work like that no...I'm still here living in my own personal hell...for that reason I wish I had a normal family with a loving father and mother and a brother who will be an amazing kid...but in life wishes are not always granted...my mother broken...my father evil...my brother a a follower. I really wish for a father who loves me...who's not a creepy pervert...who doesn't push me around and berate me. I'm jealous of my friends who have that.

Daily diary 16

My life is a blur,on going never stopping...hope has failed me, love has failed me, life has failed me, faith...faith is one I'm desperately trying to hold onto. Along with trust and loyalty, but you make it hard, you all do. I don't know where to turn really. Everyday is just another day...like the one before it. They blend, and rush and go on without even a second thought. The people you meet, the things said and everything that happens has an impact that can't be changed. Even if you want it to. It's done the minute it happens no turning back, no changing...nothing.

Hey

Hello Austin! I know your sort of stalking my blog so thanks!

Daily diary 15

I'm a bit confused, not a lot just a bit. I think I'm falling for you but I'm a bit reluctant to believe it or even to let it happen. I don't even know if I should pursue you or if you even like me...we're both from different worlds. You live somewhere far far away and we wouldn't have a normal relationship. All I know is that it hurts, it hurts when you talk about someone else. About how pretty she is, how great she is, how she has a boyfriend or she doesn't. It hurts though and I don't know what to do.

Daily diary 14

An idea. An inspiring idea, thought, story. I had watched a movie tonight and it was interesting to say the least. I did not get it at first but as I sit here now thinking about it, I finally see it a bit more clearly. The Perks of Being a Wallflower, I really enjoyed the movie and it brought out something in me that I had not felt in a while,mixed in with a lot of other emotions like fear, and anger, and hurt, and frustration, and so many other thins that I could just...I don't know. Tonight's daily diary is different I'm not talking in critics or being creative and writing in a wonderful way of expressing my emotions so that I can also have it relate to others, relate it to other so they can feel like someone gets them. I want to put me out here for now. Because for the first time I want to be creative for myself I want to express my way of thinking and although this is making no sense right now or well that's how it feels like...

“This moment will just be another story someday.”

That's how I feel, my life, this year, this month, this day, these days to come... My life will be just another story to be nixed into the countless others. The feelings I feel now are real and fresh and I can't eat them out of my head. They won't leave and I don't think they will for a long time. And while I half pretend to be happy I feel like dirt and I feel worthless, I feel lonely and worried and scared. Scared of what might happen and what will come of the decisions that are going to be made. I wish my life were a movie, a book, a song, because then it would be out there and be more inspiring then just being a blog where no one reads it unless I actually read it to them. Maybe it would help someone, save someone even. Who knows...maybe. I look at people sometimes and I wonder things like what are they thinking about, what are they doing here, what do they want to do, what are they going to do, what will they do, what is their purpose. I don't reach many conclusions but it's interesting to think about. I guess this is just me venting because this post has a meaning but yet it doesn't. I'm tired but I'm not tired...I think to much but that's not always bad. I think about things from the past often, mostly bad things... I should really think about other things. I guess that's it really my thoughts are all written or typed and it's done. Thanks for listening.

Daily diary 13

I want to disappear, I want to be lost, I want to be frozen, I want to turn back time, I want to I want to I want to...so many things. I'm confused, I'm scared, I'm hurt, I'm in pain,I'm tired, I'm tired of all this bull shit. I'm tired of all the lies. I'm tired of all the yelling and fighting and the cheating and the backstabbing...I'm tired of not knowing. Not knowing who to believe, what to believe, what to do, where to go,who to turn to. It's all so confusing. I just want to go, somewhere, and disappear.

Daily diary 12

I want to believe you. I do...so much that it hurts because you are my father. The one who raised me, the one who was always there for me,the one who gives me advice and supports me the one I love...the one I hate. It's confusing, the mixture inside. Always battling whether to believe you, to forgive you, to love you or hate you. I don't want to love you...I don't want to hate you. I don't know really. I just want to make you disappear sometimes,so you can't hurt her, hurt him, hurt me. You find the situations enjoyable, to watch us bend and break, to snap, to cry, to break down, to whither up...to die inside. This is why I love to hate you.

Daily diary 11

The sleepless nights, the tired days...the yelling the screaming the lying the cheating... The game is playing, the rounds are shorting, it's coming to an end. But it's not even close... The war is not yet over it's still just beginning, the facts are evident they tell that everything under the picture perfect family is on thin ice and it's cracking, breaking, snapping. Under the pressure of the lies,the games, the fighting, the confusion, the hurt, the pain...everything. It's going to crack and I hope I'm not there to see it do so.

Daily diary #10

I feel alone, isolated, lost...gone. I don't know where I am anymore, here,there, anywhere, everywhere...no where. It doesn't make sense. What is happening here,I can't grasp it,I won't grasp it, I don't want to grasp it. All at the same time I want to make sense of it, I want to understand why. He is a complete ass,but gets away with making her look crazy, making me look crazy. I hate him. I hate him, I hate him,I hate him, but at the same time I can't. I can't because he is an important part of my life, so it makes it hard to make decisions. Although I have to make the tough decisions because who else will make them, who else will get control of the situation, who else will take the monster down. It has to be me.

Daily diary 9

I don't know what to believe anymore. Hearing your cries of pleasure then hearing your cries of pain and sadness confuses me. It does not make sense, I understand one thing and then the next it is different. Maybe I'm to young to understand it, maybe I'm to naive, maybe I'm to innocent, maybe I'm just to smart looking over what is there. I don't know what to believe anymore. Maybe I'm just better of believing no one , trusting no one, just keep to myself.

Daily diary 8.5

I'm the girl who puts up fake smiles at times. I'm the girl who goes home hoping not to see a repeat of last time. I'm the girl who can only be strong for a certain amount of time. I'm the girl that will eventually snap. I'm the girl who ends up clutching the bible,wishing, wanting for it to turn out right. I'm the girl who cries at the window watching to see if she has come home yet. I'm the girl who is pretending to be happy with him around. I'm the girl who is always super worried. I'm the girl who listens for the sound of cars coming down the street. I'm the girl who rushes to the window to be disappointed. I'm the girl...

Daily diary #8

You think your life is so bad...you complain about homework,about your job, about the little things that may go wrong. But you have not seen what happens here, where I reside...in my sorrows, my sadness, my life. In someways it sucks, an when I think thing are going to get better they get worse. I can not go on living my life the way it is now. The lies I tell, the front I put up, the pretending I do...it's a lot and I handle it. But with you not by my side, with you falling behind as I try to move forward. It's beginning to be hard. With out you standing here with me constantly, strong,willing, and ready to go with anything. It's getting harder and harder and as the days go on I sound like a depressed little girl who everyone "needs" to help, who everyone "needs" to fix, who everyone "needs" to know what's wrong to have the latest news. I'm fine but what about you? What about me? What about him? What about them? Do you not care enough to try harder, to try to stay away from the stuff that makes you weak...don't you try to help your self? You're ever so slowly killing your self, mentally and physically...you're killing the people around you...friends and family the people who care. But obviously you don't believe it..you let the monster who torments us get through your skin,through your armor, through the many cracks it has...you let the monster get what he wants, what he craves for...your demise, your pain, your anger, your sadness...he does this purposefully...to get this reaction...to get what he wants...and I don't know when you will realize it but when you do you will be free...free of everything, the pain,the sadness,the hurt..everything...

You will be free.

Daily diary #7

We're all hypocrites...we say one thing and do another. We want opinions and when they're given we say they are wrong and that it's not the right answer. An opinion contradicted by another opinion, it makes no sense. It makes you ignorant and made to look like a fool. It is all wrong in a sense, so when this happens just walk away because it's not worth it.

Daily Diary #6

The hours tick by moving to quickly for me yet to slow...the doom that I hold coming closer and closer. I just want to disappear to never come back. The feeling of pain, sorrow, grief, heart ache is present now and will stay for a long while, never truly going to leave. The feelings have been present for a long while now, and knowing what I have to do tomorrow is not helping much. I feel terrible, me...I am terrible as I just realize that now. I have so much going on inside, the swirls of confusion spiraling out of control in my mind. It feels cloudy, it feels not real, it feels like Im in a dream. Like I am not in reality. I do not want to do this, no but what I am feeling now is not good for me! Or is this just me trying to make peace with myself by saying that. His heart will be broken, but the things that I am going through is to much of a burden to keep carrying that along with a relationship. I feel like we are just drifting through space, not talking, not touching, not doing much of anything. We do not talk, we do not touch and we most defiantly do not do anything. What we are is not a boyfriend - girlfriend relationship...what we are is friends...friends with benefits if you'd like because friends do not kiss. No. They do not do that...but even friends touch more, talk more, do more than we had ever done in the three months and two weeks we have been together. I can not do this anymore. I just can not. I am so sorry, you are one of my best friends turned into something more...but in reality we were always just friends with a different title...

Dairy # 5

Pain. That is all I feel. This is no ordinary pain that one would feel getting hurt or having just gotten broken up with. No. This pain is far worse and I am being consumed by it every second. The gnawing feeling in my stomach, the rough feeling in the back of my throat, the constant rushing of thoughts in my head. My heart heavy with the feeling of dread, anxiety, disappointment, hate, anger, betrayal, loneliness...all weighing me down to the depths of darkness. The loss of sleep, no communication, nothing...everything completely cut off. Life around me has stopped, everything at a stand still. Nothing feels real, nothing is real and and if it is I have no idea of it not even an inkling. Real or not real. Reality or not reality. Real life or dream. The tears held back, the pain hidden, the memories fresh. The pain is too unbearable to deal with, sometimes the though of leaving comes up, for a little while, for a long while, forever. I do not wish this pain on anyone, nor do I doubt this has not happened to some. The old memories surface along with the new one and bring longing along with insufferable loneliness and sadness with it. Everything we did together, movies watched, late nights spent talking about our problems about boys about anything possible, doing normal things together like shopping...I feel dead, I feel void of everything, i feel nothing... You lied and stabbed me in the back repeatedly while the other continued to lead on the hull of lies that had been created already. Pain. That is all I feel.

Daily Diary # 4

There I am sitting in the back of acting class hoping I do not have to recite my monologue and do my project. So I'm just sitting there wondering when class would end and finally someone in my class strikes my acting teacher into a conversation that takes almost all the period! You do not know how happy I was :D

Daily Dairy 3.5

Okay so exciting news! My Aunt is here in New Jersey for the weekend! I am extremely excited because I hardly ever get to see her so it was a very shocked to see her at the front door! I stood there for a minute with the face that must have been award worthy because she laughed and then hugged me! It was very excited!

The City of Bones by Cassandra Clare

This book was phenomenal!!! I love this book so much, I highly recommend this book! This is a part of a series, and there are three books! It put me through an emotional turmoil and made me feel many different emotions and left me wanting so much more. I recommend that you check this book out and the rest of the series. (The Mortal Instrument) The book series consists of City of Bones, City of Glass, and City of Ashes. Check it out

When fifteen-year-old Clary Fray heads out to the Pandemonium Club in New York City, she hardly expects to witness a murder -- much less a murder committed by three teenagers covered with strange tattoos and brandishing bizarre weapons. Then the body disappears into thin air. It's hard to call the police when the murderers are invisible to everyone else and when there is nothing -- not even a smear of blood -- to show that a boy has died. Or was he a boy?

This is Clary's first meeting with the Shadowhunters, warriors dedicated to ridding the earth of demons. It's also her first encounter with Jace, a Shadowhunter who looks a little like an angel and acts a lot like a jerk. Within twenty-four hours Clary is pulled into Jace's world with a vengeance, when her mother disappears and Clary herself is attacked by a demon. But why would demons be interested in ordinary mundanes like Clary and her mother? And how did Clary suddenly get the Sight? The Shadowhunters would like to know. . . .

Exotic and gritty, exhilarating and utterly gripping, Cassandra Clare's ferociously entertaining fantasy takes readers on a wild ride that they will never want to end.



http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/256683.City_of_Bones

Daily Dairy #3

So I stay home sick right, although I totally think it's just girl problems that I had but that's besides the point. I ended up sleeping all day and wake up at 3:30 pm!! OMG! I ended missing my little brothers bus and the bus driver almost kept him on the bus! I felt terrible!