Daily Diary 86

The suns rays come through the window, lighting up the tree outside and creating shadows on the wall. I can't really think about anything at the moment. My heads a little numb. If our talk was fine, then why do I feel like my heart is breaking into a million pieces. I feel like everything is not fine. I guess thats why I'm crying right now...I don't know...I hate feeling like this.

Daily Diary 85

He told me he loves me. Did I imagine that? Or did I really hear that. I didn't say anything...I honestly didn't know how to reply. I don't know what love is and if I'm feeling that. I know that I really really like him. I'm absolutely taken by him, and I can see us being together for a long time. But now I think I might have upset him. I don't know he's become distant with me. Although it is my fault I pressured him into saying it. I didn't think the secret thing he had to say would be that. I'm just confused and conflicted.

Daily Diary 84

When I was younger my history class used to write letters to deployed soldiers. I loved the idea of a long hand written letter and I love/support my military. I recently found the old letters from the man I used to write. I treasure them to this day because I never had done something like that before and I thought it was a brilliant idea. I should continue doing that. Writing letters to deployed troops but thats a story for another day. Today I have come to vent about whether or not I should try to send a message to this soldier. I am pretty sure I have found his Facebook profile ( I know creepy) but I would like to see how he is doing and if he remembers the little sixth grade me. I don't even know for sure if that is him but it could be worth a try. But it also borderlines creepy, right? I don't know I just feel like maybe this might be a bit too were to do. Like who really does this? Well me, because I am weird and borderline crazy but thats besides the point. I don't know what to do. I have tried contacting him once before but I never went through with it because well I thought it might be creepy then too. I don't know, I guess I will ask around and see what I should do. Hopefully no one will judge me too hard. Until next time.

xoxo

Daily Diary 83

I feel like my life has been moving at a faster pace then usual. It's not a bad thing but I feel like everything is just passing me by so quickly and I'm running out of time to spend with you. Every moment that I spend with you, I like you more and more. I like how your eyes light up when you talk about something that you love. I like it when you laugh. I like it when you smile. I like the way you make me feel when we are together. We haven't know each other long and i think thats crazy because I feel like I have known you for so long. Maybe its just the hopeless romantic in me but you drive me crazy but you make me feel like I'm at my best. You make me feel beautiful. This might sound so stupid and cliche but its true. I used to think that this only happened in books but since I met you I've noticed things like this actually happen. I am so glad that I met you.