Dairy # 5

Pain. That is all I feel. This is no ordinary pain that one would feel getting hurt or having just gotten broken up with. No. This pain is far worse and I am being consumed by it every second. The gnawing feeling in my stomach, the rough feeling in the back of my throat, the constant rushing of thoughts in my head. My heart heavy with the feeling of dread, anxiety, disappointment, hate, anger, betrayal, loneliness...all weighing me down to the depths of darkness. The loss of sleep, no communication, nothing...everything completely cut off. Life around me has stopped, everything at a stand still. Nothing feels real, nothing is real and and if it is I have no idea of it not even an inkling. Real or not real. Reality or not reality. Real life or dream. The tears held back, the pain hidden, the memories fresh. The pain is too unbearable to deal with, sometimes the though of leaving comes up, for a little while, for a long while, forever. I do not wish this pain on anyone, nor do I doubt this has not happened to some. The old memories surface along with the new one and bring longing along with insufferable loneliness and sadness with it. Everything we did together, movies watched, late nights spent talking about our problems about boys about anything possible, doing normal things together like shopping...I feel dead, I feel void of everything, i feel nothing... You lied and stabbed me in the back repeatedly while the other continued to lead on the hull of lies that had been created already. Pain. That is all I feel.

Daily Diary # 4

There I am sitting in the back of acting class hoping I do not have to recite my monologue and do my project. So I'm just sitting there wondering when class would end and finally someone in my class strikes my acting teacher into a conversation that takes almost all the period! You do not know how happy I was :D

Daily Dairy 3.5

Okay so exciting news! My Aunt is here in New Jersey for the weekend! I am extremely excited because I hardly ever get to see her so it was a very shocked to see her at the front door! I stood there for a minute with the face that must have been award worthy because she laughed and then hugged me! It was very excited!

The City of Bones by Cassandra Clare

This book was phenomenal!!! I love this book so much, I highly recommend this book! This is a part of a series, and there are three books! It put me through an emotional turmoil and made me feel many different emotions and left me wanting so much more. I recommend that you check this book out and the rest of the series. (The Mortal Instrument) The book series consists of City of Bones, City of Glass, and City of Ashes. Check it out

When fifteen-year-old Clary Fray heads out to the Pandemonium Club in New York City, she hardly expects to witness a murder -- much less a murder committed by three teenagers covered with strange tattoos and brandishing bizarre weapons. Then the body disappears into thin air. It's hard to call the police when the murderers are invisible to everyone else and when there is nothing -- not even a smear of blood -- to show that a boy has died. Or was he a boy?

This is Clary's first meeting with the Shadowhunters, warriors dedicated to ridding the earth of demons. It's also her first encounter with Jace, a Shadowhunter who looks a little like an angel and acts a lot like a jerk. Within twenty-four hours Clary is pulled into Jace's world with a vengeance, when her mother disappears and Clary herself is attacked by a demon. But why would demons be interested in ordinary mundanes like Clary and her mother? And how did Clary suddenly get the Sight? The Shadowhunters would like to know. . . .

Exotic and gritty, exhilarating and utterly gripping, Cassandra Clare's ferociously entertaining fantasy takes readers on a wild ride that they will never want to end.



http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/256683.City_of_Bones

Daily Dairy #3

So I stay home sick right, although I totally think it's just girl problems that I had but that's besides the point. I ended up sleeping all day and wake up at 3:30 pm!! OMG! I ended missing my little brothers bus and the bus driver almost kept him on the bus! I felt terrible!