Daily Diary 55

People think I'm this strong person who is exceptionally nice and let's people walk all over her. In reality I'm going insane, I feel like my world is crashing down on my shoulders and I'm losing everything. My friends, my family...myself. I don't know what to do anymore.

Daily Diary 54

Something makes me hate everything. Everything! I don't know what it is, and it only happens on certain days. And when it does it makes me feel like the whole world is against me...like I can trust no one...though when you put it that way it makes me sound invincible when really I could be dead in a second. Everything’s so fragile. Humans are so fragile, but we are strong too. We go through so many emotions....Anger, Jealousy, Bitterness, Tiredness, Hope, Lust, Love.

It's all the things you can't explain. It's all the things we feel in a day...in a life time...but that's what makes us human.

Daily Diary 53

Water runs down my face...slowly dripping off is rhythmic sequence. My reflection states back at me...my face solem...my mind silent...my eyes hold many emotions. They reflect loneliness, grievance, loss, anger, emptiness. 

Daily Diary 52

I cannot help but smile when I think of it, see it, feel it. It has been in my life for a very long time and it will stay in my life for forever. I am a total fangirl who believes in too much and keeps her head stuck up in the clouds...even when I was told to come down I can not afford to do that. It means to much to me...it is my life...it keeps me alive and sane. Believing in this allows me to hope, to have faith and to be who I am meant to be. Narnia is my home, it is where I belong...it is where I am meant to be.

Daily Diary 51

You don't  know what it's like to be an outsider, to be ashamed of how you were born, have to hide who you are....it's lonely...to be more powerful than any man you know, and have to live like a shadow...to be special and then have to pretend your a fool...I know how it feels... I understand...none of us can chose our destiny Merlin...and none of us can escape it...Destinies are troublesome things...you feel trapped...like your whole life is being planned out for you, and you have no control over anything and sometime you don't even know if what destiny decided is really the best thing at all...I don't need anyone...I can't afford that luxury...the love that binds us is more important than the power we wield.

Merlin (BBC) 
Golden Heart (youtube channel)