Daily Diary 65

It's been a while, so I guess you could say that everything has been going pretty well but it's going down hill again and there is nothing I can do to stop it. My best friend(well pretty much my sister) is angry with me,or at least it seems that way and is acting different. I don't know what to do or why she is even upset with me. I might fancy a boy who I'm not even sure likes girls! He said so but who the hell know anymore, all my life my relationships have turned out bad. My mother is drinking again and my friends have started to slip through my fingers. And I honestly I have no idea what I'm even writing because I feel so...so cluttered and disoriented in my head that I don't know what to feel. I just know that I feel alone...very very alone.