Daily Diary 50

"I hope no one who reads this book has been quite as miserable as Susan and Lucy were that night: but if you have been - if you have been up all night and cried till you have no more tears left in you - you will know that there comes in the end a sort of quietness. You feel as if nothing is ever going to happen again." (The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe. pg183.)

Daily Diary 49

I am fascinated with death. For some odd reason I'm fascinated with the concept and the feelings that come with it. I start to obsess over it, wanting to know everything...needing to know everything. How, when, where...why. I like to feel the pain, I like to know the pain, I like to see the pain. How people grieve the different emotions that pass through them. It's fascinating to me. 

Daily Diary 48

Those days are long gone and yet I still want to remember them...I yearn for them. I want to remember how happy I was and how amazing it was to be with all of you. You all became my family and I will never forget that...I don't want to forget that. So I will grab onto those memories and I will store them away and keep them for forever 

Daily Diary 47

I want to remember. I want to relive those blissful moments, those sweet tender moments that we shared together. I was to be with you again. To catch your stares, to feel you again, to hear your voice. I want to be in your embrace again and feel you close to me. I want to see your smile and how your eyes shine when you speak. I want to remember you and I. I want to remember you.