Daily Diary 31

Maybe I'm being to stubborn,well I most likely am but it's my favorite show. It's practically my life and it means a lot. I want good seats I've always said that. I would rather not have horrible seats with people who quite frankly annoy me and have no care for the show or the arts. Yes they may be cheap but that's exactly it why am I going to see a show in seats I don't want and can't see from... I'm sorry but you can talk behind my back and every thing I don't care this is something Im getting my way.

Daily diary 30

It hurts...it hurts that you won't stand up for your self or try to improve anything...and you know what I'm tired...I'm tired of you not doing anything for you, for me or for anyone, I'm tired of having to be responsible, I'm tired of being disappointed, I'm tired of forgiving...but I know I always will because I crave your attention. I crave your affection and love and everything a mother should give...yet here I am being the mother and pushing mine away...I'm losing hope fast,I'm losing my self. I question everything,your love,your mind,you choices and decisions...everything. I am at a loss,because even before I had at least a slight idea of what to do but now I have literally nothing. Nothing but running, and I would hate to run from this...but it's what I do best...