Is it even worth being friends with others, is it worth the hurt and pain you must put into it? I know it is for the joy and happy times but when it is constantly being torn down around you is it worth it? Is it really worth it in the end. The moment feels like your heart is being ripped out and kicked around and shredded, it feels like an icy cold grip around you and you cannot break free. It is like your whole world is crashing down and you can do nothing to stop it because you also had a really big part in tearing it down. Am I really that much of an idiot? Am I really that naive? Am I really that stupid? I guess all I can say is sorry for everything and that I have done everything I could have done. But even that is a lie because I haven't done anything and still have not, I tried to and it was successful at first but then it took a turn for the worst. Then I go and make it ten times worse because I'm a complete idiot who pushes the people that care away and react in such a hard manner which ends in disaster. I lose everyone in the end anyway so whats the difference now right? Well there is a big difference because I don't want to lose this person, but I think I already did. I am so sorry.
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