Daily Diary 34

I feel trapped. I feel trapped under a thick layer of ice, drifting through the water underneath. I feel heavy, I feel like I'm sinking. I can see fragments of light, of hope, but it disappears just as soon as it comes. It's cold, it's dark, it's lonely.  I don't understand anything anymore, the conflicting feelings swirling inside mind, the numb feeling all over my body, the confusion pulsing through my blood stream. I feel like giving into the sinking feeling, I feel like giving into the darkness, but I know I can't.