Daily Diary 58

I don't know how to handle anything any more. I'm losing my mind, drowning in it and I can see others around me drowning too. I can see them reaching for help, I watch them, I only watch them for I've given up a long time ago. I'm so confused anymore I don't know who to trust or who to turn to. Now my sister is drowning to, and I fear she may be going in to deep to fast, faster than the speed I'm going at. I'm afraid. I'm afraid I won't be able to help her, to save her. I'm lost and I can't help.