Daily diary 19

Revenge...something many think of, something many follow through with,something many want to have...I'm no different. I want revenge on that one person who hurt me,who hurt us, who finds enjoyment in all of this. I want him to feel everything I feel,everything she feels...and with these thoughts I can't trust anybody with these secrets I hide, not all of them at least. I can really only trust my self. Although there's one thing that he can count on, I NEVER forget...

Daily diary 18

My mother always says that I'm strong...invincible...these times are the best, at times like this we understand each other a lot more than usual. At those moments is turn and wrap her up in a hug and think to my self that I am strong, I am invincible. As much as I want to believe it...I'm not...at all I'm becoming broken and even though I alright I'm not really I'm breaking inside. I can't control anything. Control has slipped through my fingers like sand. And I wish he was dead, others wish he was dead but there is a part of me that wishes he wasn't...may that be my humane side or the side that still wants to love him...

Daily diary 17

Sometimes I feel like I've been killed, like I'm gone, I'm lost...but it doesn't work like that no...I'm still here living in my own personal hell...for that reason I wish I had a normal family with a loving father and mother and a brother who will be an amazing kid...but in life wishes are not always granted...my mother broken...my father evil...my brother a a follower. I really wish for a father who loves me...who's not a creepy pervert...who doesn't push me around and berate me. I'm jealous of my friends who have that.

Daily diary 16

My life is a blur,on going never stopping...hope has failed me, love has failed me, life has failed me, faith...faith is one I'm desperately trying to hold onto. Along with trust and loyalty, but you make it hard, you all do. I don't know where to turn really. Everyday is just another day...like the one before it. They blend, and rush and go on without even a second thought. The people you meet, the things said and everything that happens has an impact that can't be changed. Even if you want it to. It's done the minute it happens no turning back, no changing...nothing.

Daily diary #7

We're all hypocrites...we say one thing and do another. We want opinions and when they're given we say they are wrong and that it's not the right answer. An opinion contradicted by another opinion, it makes no sense. It makes you ignorant and made to look like a fool. It is all wrong in a sense, so when this happens just walk away because it's not worth it.